I have been attending an amazing
support group since losing Annabelle. Now I know that support groups
are not for everyone, and attending one can be like going on a blind
date. However if you find the right one it can be like true love. This is certainly the case for me!
I have not only had amazing support
throughout my journey but have made some incredible friends who I
cannot imagine my life without.
Recently our group had the opportunity
to share our stories with student midwives. I cannot begin to tell
you how excited I was when I heard about this.
Any chance I get to speak about
Annabelle and share my story just makes me so happy. Probably nearly
as happy as I was last week thinking about the copious amounts of
chocolate I was going to consume on Easter Sunday.
I knew this night would be special, and
I knew I would definitely have plenty to share, however what took me
by surprise was how moving it was. Speaking to these lovely women
brought out so much raw emotion. I have not cried over Annabelle that
way in a long time. Nor had I really remembered her entire birth
with such vivid images. It was truly beautiful. Being able to have
these impassioned releases is incredibly important as I have just
realised. Even nearly two years later. It is part of the journey
and part of my healing.
I came home that night knowing that I
needed to continue to blog and share my story with whoever wanted to
listen. This isn't just because it is so important to educate women
and to give other bereaved parents hope and support but because I
need this just as much.
In just under a week, the 4th
of April will once again appear and it will have been two years since
I gave birth to my precious first born daughter who will forever be
still. There has been so much that has happened in that time frame, the biggest being our rainbow Piper. I cannot imagine life without
her and I am so thankful for her, but of course there will always be
part of me that wonders about Annabelle and what life would or could
have been. For this reason if nothing else I need to continue to
share my feelings and her story.
I am going to continue sharing stories that I hope will be enjoyed and bring you
comfort, support or even just a brief moment of laughter. I also
would love to be able to share and speak about topics that may be of
interest to all of you out there who are reading this. Please leave
a comment and let me know if there is something in particular you
would like me to share my insight on.
I look forward to another year of
sharing and another year of growing stronger through my grief.